You failed at making her happy the first time. Women usually don't up and leave the father of their children because of one situation unless it has to do with cheating, abuse or an extreme lie.
If she left and it wasn't because of one of the above mentioned things, then it was an ongoing unhappiness and your recent actions were probably the "straw that broke the camels back".
If it was one of the above mentioned things, well...frankly you didn't deserve her to begin with.
rashnu i said i need to save the one ive lost,,, then secondly myself... if ud read my first post properly u would know that i want to erase her pain... to take it back....to change it... in doing so i will save myself, because it is the hurt that i know she feels that is envoking the feelings i have , and hence my physical state.
i may not get her back ,not after a thousand appologies, but i at least want to die knowing she does not hurt anymore.
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Thats why brothers and sisters and friends are for. Go tell her, u can never win a race by sleeping on a starting line. U have to run for it. Go tell her that u love her, that she is urs, that she is ur heaven on earth, that no girl is pure enough to take her place, that she is meant to be ur. believe me, if u do this, u will again be urs, and who will forget the first marriage night, and those hugs and kisses, and those whispers. SHE WILL COME. Just Keep God in ur Heart.
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dont be silly boy. She love u, she is after all urs. Go speak up. Cry on her shoulders. And u dont need a 1000 apologies, a 1 genuine apology is enough to change her heart. God help u.
Become your own man. Become independent and strong. It does you no good to dwell on these things. If you cannot win her back by natural methods, then stop being dependent on how she thinks about you and become your own person.
I don't mean to be cruel, but it is the truth. You can't dwell on this if you want to remain sane.
ok, first you need to help yourself. if you really cant eat you have a serious problem, and lay off the bad stuff, even if you cant eat. your lumnius energy feild has a imprint. an imprint is a big dent that will mess you up no matter WHAT you do. you can have all the medical things in the world, it wont matter, it will keep coming back.
to fix this, you have to change your luminuos energy field, or aura.
you need to sit and meditate. when you do this clear your mind and draw power from your feet. pull it throughout your body and imagine black twisted up knots leaving your system, flushing it out. then let the new energy be bright green and let it fill you. push this energy out of you and make it enfold you, to cover your aura. flush the bad stuff out of there too. take your time and do it often for long periods of time. if this isnt helping, you can find a shaman, or a healier, or anyone who has experience with auras to help you.
also, you can try this too. chakras are a big thing too. they affect your actions and feelings. if you heal them, you heal your luminous energy field, or aura, as well.
chakras: there are 7 major chakras in the body. chakras mean spinning wheels of energy. so there are 7 spinning wheels of energy on your body. all of them appear in front you.
the first is red, it is at the level of your tailbone.
the second is orange, it is around your belly button.
the third is yellow, it is at you solar plexus.
the fourth is green, it is around your heart.
the fifth is blue, it is at the base of your throat.
the sixth is dark purple, it is in the middle of your forehead.
the seventh is a very light purple, it is on top of you head.
sit and meditate, calm yourself. start at the red chakra and "light them up" by imagining clockwise spinning red energy. do this with all of you chakras in order from red to light purple. again, do this often and for long periods of time.
this is to help you yourself. you need to eat, that is the first issue. and before you eat somthing, take deep breaths, and calm yourself.
